The nurse just called. My progesterone levels yesterday were 1.81 (a normal pregnancy at this point would have a level of 20+. The presence of progesterone at all indicates that I was indeed pregnant, but that pregnancy was most definitely on its way out). My Hcg level was at 9 … I forget what that means. She said that I need to go back for another Hcg blood test next week just to make sure that level is "normal."
I'm glad that my results weren't ambiguous. I'm glad that we can know without doubt what is going on with me. I am so thankful to have found such an amazing doctor with such a caring staff. The nurse was so kind on the phone and said "I'm so sorry" and also encouraged me to talk about what has happened because it happens to a lot of people, as awful as it is (I should have given her my blog address, ha ha. If she only knew!). My doctor encouraged me in the same way yesterday. They are so awesome.
I am sad. I am wondering what the future holds. I am hopeful.
Thank you all for your encouragement and kind words in response to my post yesterday
. I do not regret sharing what has happened because of the outpouring of support and the prayers you have said for our family. I hope that everyone who goes through something like this can feel the sympathy and/or empathy that I have felt the last few days.
Today I am holding on to God's promises.
Many are asking 'Who can show us any good?'
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O LORD.
You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.
I will lie down and sleep in peace,
for you alone O LORD,
make me dwell in safety.
Today I am thankful for the good things in my life.
There are so many.