1. NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month). I thought about doing it last year, but soon realized that with a three-month-old baby? It wasn't going to happen. And now it's arrived again and while I'd like to give it the old college try and post on my blog every day from here until Dec. 1, I have qualms about it. Number one? When I post on my blog it's because I have something to say, and I'm afraid if I participate in NaBloPoMo I'll just write drivel (such as lists of things I'm on the fence about) every day just to write SOMETHING. I like my blog. I like that I have the freedom to post when I want. I feel like my life is so scheduled and there are so many other expectations everywhere else … this little corner of the universe is mine and I can do as I please and not have to be on a schedule. But then again? A lot of my friends are doing it, and it would be nice to actually challenge myself in some way. But then again? I don't really feel like any extra challenges right now. Hmmm.
2. Going to bed earlier. For the last few weeks I've been staying up late. Like WAY TOO LATE. As in midnight, one … sometimes two am. That is just crazy. I'm realizing that as an adult I am one of those people who needs a solid nine hours to be functional. Lately when I get up in the morning I feel like absolute crap and it takes me two large cups of coffee just to get going. That is just ridiculous. Also? I've heard that it's easier to lose weight and maintain weight loss if you sleep more. And so? SNOOOOOOOORE. I guess I'm really not on the fence on that one (unless you consider me wanting to go to bed earlier but staying up late anyway to be a conflict of interests, ha ha).
3. Getting real makeup. I have a very small makeup bag, the contents of which were entirely purchased at Target or where ever. Every day I wear pressed powder, maybe some concealer (if the under-eye bags are really bad or I have a zit), blush, brow powder, eyeliner and mascara. The formulas are all unscented or for sensitive skin. I have wondered, though, if it might be time for me to visit a "real" makeup counter? I will probably never increase the amount of makeup I wear and I don't wish to look any different – I feel ok about the colors that I use and the methods that I use to apply them – but lately I have been more interested in using higher quality products. The problem is that I just don't know where to start. I don't have the time, money or patience to be matched with products that are the wrong color or make me break out, to go to the mall and have some painted lady try to sell me all kinds of products that I don't want or need … which makes me think that I should just stick to what's working. My mother is a Mary Kay lady and while I love many of their products, their face makeup (as in base, powder, etc) in particular has not agreed with my fussy olive-toned skin. Any suggestions?
4. Vaccinations. While I was ok with Sydney getting a regular flu shot, I'm not so sure how I feel about the H1N1 vaccine. Sydney is not in day care and does not visit a church nursery. She is exposed to other kids sometimes, but it is very limited (mostly it's at home or at church). I know that she is more at risk of contracting the flu from me or John, as we are in constant contact with Very Germy college and high school students. BUT! A new vaccine makes me very nervous. It just came out in October and it seems like everyone who can get it is getting it. Please understand, I am for vaccinations, and I realize this is a very sticky subject. I feel like I have it easy because our pediatrician has two young children. Every time he goes over something with us (at our office visit before vaccinations are coming up he goes through them all with us and explains why he gives them, what they're for … all that), I simply ask him if he gave them to his own children. If he says yes, then I'm fine with it … because if it's good enough for the doctor's kids, it's good enough for mine. Last visit he mentioned the chicken pox vaccine and I was all "What?! Isn't it a rite of passage to get chicken pox?" and he said that kids have been getting vaccinated for chicken pox for a while now. I felt a little unsettled about that, as I had never heard of it. I need to do more research, but all this vaccination talk has me spinning. I live in a liberal state where people are very black and white about issues … I just want to do what's best for my child. This first bout of sickness she had over Halloween weekend really put me into overdrive thinking about it. GOSH WHY DOES PARENTHOOD HAVE TO BE SO HARD!?
5. This movie. It looks like a heartwarming story in which a privileged family steps outside of their comfort zone to help someone who so desperately needs it in a permanent way. I'm all for that! And yet? I know that it just makes the idea of someone doing such a thing an occurance that "only can happen in movies." It just removes us farther from the concept of actually doing something like this in real life, doesn't it? I mean, what white upper-class family do you know who would welcome a black high school boy into their home? For real? With all his baggage? Also, from the preview? I don't like how the boy's family is portrayed … here is this white, rich, blonde, overbearing southern lady (stereotype) "saving" this young man from his black, uneducated, 40-ounce drinking, subsidized-housing-living, ungrateful biological family (STEREOTYPE) and how they SAVE EACH OTHER. It claims to be based on a true story but I think Hollywood is so guilty of boiling all these stereotypes down to these caricatures that it makes me cringe a little. But also? I really want to see it. I so desperately want to see people who have the means reach out to those who are in their path in real, tangible ways. I want to see people extending "cups of water" in Jesus' name. In ways that change the lives of all parties involved, inconvenience and rejection from the people who are their friends in the world of "the other" be damned. And so you can see how the opening shots where this family stops their car on the side of the road as this boy walks down it alone and freezing cold and does something to help him TOTALLY SUCKS ME IN. ARGHHHH.
Is anyone else doing any fence-riding lately or is it just me?!?